Self Summary


In March 2014, I decided to flew to Kuala Lumpur alone with RM 50 in my pocket. It was a long story but I survived. I was once being told by my Mentor that life is not  a destination, it is a journey. I could not agree with him anymore. Another Mentor of mine said that, it is my choice of what I want to become. Whether to be a failure or to be someone successful. I can be whatever I want to be "only if I wanted to". Her hastag #nakdengantaknakje .

Alhamdulilah. Within these 6 years (turning 7 in March 2021) I met many people with different way of thinking and backgrounds which has widen my perspective of life. Despite all challenges, I never regret of taking a step from my hometown. It changes me a lot. 

In this blog, I would love to share my self reflections and spread the positivity as many as I can.  Well yes of course, I am just a normal human being which has my own difficult times so just bear with me. Lately, I found myself eagerly writes every emotions that I feel and I realized that it made me feel good after jotting them down. So here I am. 

Summarizing myself, I am a girl who came from Penampang, Sabah who loves to do self reflection (lately). It may happen at anytime & anywhere. It depends on what I see, feel, read and listen to.  This is one of the reason why I love to be on the train, to go to a coffee shop or just walking around. It's because you will see the people around you. Many characters, behaviors, reactions, emotions and all. Along the way, you will understand that you are not alone. 

You are not the only person had lost the job. You are not the only person who have financial issue. You are not the only person that have a broken family. You are not the only person that messed up. You are not the only person who's having these challenges. Trust me, you're not the only one. Take some time to see what went wrong and find out what you should do to not repeat the same mistake. Because you do not want to give up. You still have the LIFE to LIVE for. Lesson learned and no matter how hard it is, don't give up. Find what you really love to do and start doing it (as long as not against the law/ as long as you're not causing harm to others).

So, to the visitors who accidentally landed on this page. If you're having a hard time now, trust me there must be wisdom behind all these. Keep your heads up and never give up. 


P/s: Please do let me know if I have mistakes on my writing as I am an English beginner. Thank you!

Love, 
#50ringgitgirl


Location: Petaling Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia

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